My blog has been getting a lot of hits over the last month although I have not shared anything new. I swear I did not abandon it. I've just been going through some things. If you are connected to me on Facebook, you may already know that we have been doing a small kitchen face lift. This so-called small kitchen remodeling project grew a little, just shy of a high rise demolition and rebuild. It includes some new sleek toys and I am really happy with the results. The original estimated timeline was supposed to be ten days max, but three weeks later the whole thing has come to a close finally. I actually believe my husband was so agreeable in upgrading our outdated kitchen so I would cook more often. Bless his sweet little heart! Hasn't he figured out the only thing to keep me cooking at regular intervals is to actually like what I cook? (He always turns up his nose at my vegetarian creations.)
Enduring this construction project during the holidays creates a much higher stress level than I could have ever imagined. We have always loved hosting small gatherings at our house during this time of year, but the kitchen demolition has made the party planning a little trickier. We have been eating out every night and keeping the boys out of the messy, dusty house as much as possible. During all this time of family togetherness, I have noticed a lot of changes in their behavior. There are very few signs of sweet little boy traits around here. When they made their Christmas wish lists this year, there were exactly zero toys that made the cut. We have never told them the truth about Santa, but no one seems to be very worried about him anymore. Whenever we are out in public, neither son wants to walk next to me, let alone hold my hand. My title of "mommy" was taken away months ago and now they just call me "mom". Even worse, this title is no longer said in a sweet way. It is usually yelled from upstairs whenever food supplies have run low, like "MOM, WE'RE STARVING!!". It leaves me feeling like I have been through some sort of demotion or reassignment. I used to be the queen of this household and now I am treated like an annoying fifth wheel that is sent away to make occasional food runs.
Of course this is not good, so this week I tried to indulge them in a little tradition I started when they were really little. Every Christmas vacation, we load up in the car dressed in pajamas and drive around looking at Christmas decorations. When we went this year, they snoozed in the back seat and asked me to wake them up if I drove by "anything cool". I recently snooped on my big boy's internet browsing history and discovered he has been Googling "signs of puberty". He was getting dressed the other day and ran for cover when he heard me walk into the room. Really?? It's not like he's had some incredible growth spurt that produced strange new body parts overnight. Even my once cuddly baby boy acts like I am invading his turf when I walk into his mini man cave. He keeps his eyes on me when I open his drawers to put away clean laundry. We have already reached the point in our relationship where I have to ask them to explain song lyrics to me because I am no longer cool enough to speak the same language.
Throughout all these little observations, I have taken note that they seem to be adjusting rather smoothly. The two of them seem to be doing okay with their new found maturity and coolness. It's me that can't handle it. They are growing up and maturing much faster than (cough, um) me. I am still stuck in the "adorable little boy" phase, while they have obviously moved up to the "pre-pre-pre-teen" phase and left me behind. I am the one who has some growing up to do. I am the one who is afraid of what new developments tomorrow will bring. By the time I catch up with them, they will have moved on to the next level. It already takes ninja-like skills just to sneak up on them to steal a kiss on the cheek. If that is the best I can get for now, then I guess I will have to treasure it for what it is...precious and rare. My Christmas wish list will include a free hug-and-kiss-combo from each kid that will have to last me until the next gift giving holiday, like maybe Mother's Day. It's going to be really interesting growing up with these two.